Today I am grateful for the understanding and support of my workplace. They sent me flowers and notes and I appreciate all the gestures they made. It was only 3 months since I returned from my 12 month maternity leave when I was diagnosed with cancer. I left pretty quickly and felt bad about it. It was as if I had suddenly disappeared. I am grateful for their understanding and support despite… Read More
Dear Me, Things have changed in the past couple of years. You became the mother of a beautiful boy whom you love unconditionally. You never thought you could love a human being this much. You raised this little being in the middle of a pandemic which made it very difficult for you and possibly created delays in your child’s development because you didn’t have the support and help that you could have… Read More
Two weeks ago, I had my surgery. Things went well. They were able to remove the main tumour as well as 4 wedges of my right lung. Part of me is relieved, part of me is worried that they may have missed something. Many people are telling me to focus on the now and stop worrying on the things that hasn’t happened yet and that you can’t control. It is true, I… Read More
Walking is my time for reflection. Since I learned about my cancer, I think a lot. But ever since I finished my chemo treatments, it seems like I’ve been thinking a lot more.
I guess we can describe all my thoughts as soul-searching.
La marche est mon temps de réflexion. Quand j’ai appris pour mon cancer, je réfléchissais beaucoup. Mais depuis que j’ai terminé mes traitements de chimiothérapie, il me semble que je réfléchis beaucoup plus.
Je suppose que nous pouvons décrire toutes mes pensées comme une introspection.
My positive CT Scan results gave me so much hope! Before I didn’t know if it was possible to survive this cancer. It is so rare and not knowing if the treatments are working was nerve-racking and to be honest, I didn’t know if I could do it. Yes, I am scared that it could start growing again or grow somewhere else in my body. Every little pains is a reminder. I… Read More
Last Thursday was my CT scan. Who knew it would be so stressful. On the way to my appointment, I felt emotional. I really want this test to bring some positive news in my life. I was listening to music and tears wanted to come out. The strangest thing was that I wasn’t thinking of anything specific. I was looking forward for this test, but I was also scared of it. This… Read More
A big part of my life, I didn’t know my purpose in life. Now that I made peace with myself and decided to stop comparing myself to others and be happy with what I have, now that death is threatening me, I pray for my life. I ask myself so many questions and the main one is “why are you giving me something so beautiful and precious and you’re threatening of taking… Read More
The past weekend was great! For us in Canada, it was a long weekend. Yes, I was still feeling the chemo effects, but I was feeling good enough to go on a small walks here and there. When you have a child, you can’t just stay at home all the time. Our son would just be a mess. So we went for short walks at places we never been or that me… Read More
Sometimes it takes a while to realize some things and it’s better now than never right? In the past few weeks, I have been a little bit off. I made mistakes, forget to do things, been frustrated with things I used to be able to do and learn with ease and now it is just not going as well as it used to. Sometimes I forget I’m approaching the 40’s, I am… Read More
Have you ever lost your purpose? Feeling worthless? Felt like the smallest challenge was impossible to undertake? You’re not alone! Back in 2015, I started a job that I liked. I’ve put in crazy hours, I didn’t mind because I was feeling like I belonged, that I was valued and that I made a difference and was seeing opportunities for the future. After 6 months working there, the management changed and everything… Read More
Sometimes darkness suddenly invades my thoughts and I don’t know why. I fight with my thoughts to change my way of thinking trying to be positive. Sometimes with no success or it’s just temporary. Having expectations can sometimes hurt you. Sometimes, an event that didn’t work as you planned happens, the voice in your head starts to tell you negative things and it’s not really what’s happening… It triggered something deep down… Read More
Some people go through struggles all their lives. Life has given them sickness, unhappiness, pains… but they still keep their heads up and move forward. So many times they could have given up, but they never stopped hoping and live their life fighting to stay afloat. Even if life is hard, they find ways to open their hearts to people around them. It is these people that will do anything for you… Read More
Originally posted on The Mind Connectory:
When you look around in society you notice many people, but how many of them do you actually tie no prejudice or assumptions to? It’s hard wired within us to make assumptions, but it can often be a limiting trait. Here’s how it works. You see a ferocious dog with extremely sharp teeth, is fear an immediate response for most people? Probably, yes. There’s sufficient grounds…