Melanie Bisson

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Dear Me, Things have changed in the past couple of years. You became the mother of a beautiful boy whom you love unconditionally. You never thought you could love a human being this much. You raised this little being in the middle of a pandemic which made it very difficult for you and possibly created delays in your child’s development because you didn’t have the support and help that you could have… Read More

Two weeks ago, I had my surgery. Things went well. They were able to remove the main tumour as well as 4 wedges of my right lung. Part of me is relieved, part of me is worried that they may have missed something. Many people are telling me to focus on the now and stop worrying on the things that hasn’t happened yet and that you can’t control. It is true, I… Read More

Walking is my time for reflection. Since I learned about my cancer, I think a lot. But ever since I finished my chemo treatments, it seems like I’ve been thinking a lot more.

I guess we can describe all my thoughts as soul-searching.

La marche est mon temps de réflexion. Quand j’ai appris pour mon cancer, je réfléchissais beaucoup. Mais depuis que j’ai terminé mes traitements de chimiothérapie, il me semble que je réfléchis beaucoup plus.

Je suppose que nous pouvons décrire toutes mes pensées comme une introspection.

I am sorry if I was M.I.A. for a while… as most of you know, I have been dealing with cancer since April 2021. My life hasn’t been the way I imagined especially with a young child and the pandemic. My hopes was very low up until June when I learned it shrank almost by 50%. Being diagnosed at a stage 4 and see this huge improvement and knowing that the treatments… Read More

It’s almost time again to undergo another chemotherapy treatment. I don’t know why, but this time I feel more anxious. I don’t want to go. I know how it will make me feel and I am tired of this. I want my life to go back to normal. I can’t complain too much because until now I have been able to recover quite quickly and have been able to enjoy some time… Read More

Last Thursday was my CT scan. Who knew it would be so stressful. On the way to my appointment, I felt emotional. I really want this test to bring some positive news in my life. I was listening to music and tears wanted to come out. The strangest thing was that I wasn’t thinking of anything specific. I was looking forward for this test, but I was also scared of it. This… Read More

A big part of my life, I didn’t know my purpose in life. Now that I made peace with myself and decided to stop comparing myself to others and be happy with what I have, now that death is threatening me, I pray for my life. I ask myself so many questions and the main one is “why are you giving me something so beautiful and precious and you’re threatening of taking… Read More

This weekend was a little harder than usual. Has we went for a little walk, I was looking at people running, biking and kayaking and I was telling myself that I want to be able to do an activity like that again one day. Of course, with all the uncertainty in my life, I started crying. Every little things made me tear up. There is so much I would like to do… Read More

The past weekend was great! For us in Canada, it was a long weekend. Yes, I was still feeling the chemo effects, but I was feeling good enough to go on a small walks here and there. When you have a child, you can’t just stay at home all the time. Our son would just be a mess. So we went for short walks at places we never been or that me… Read More

I am not shy to say that most of my life I was a loner. I don’t have close friends. I often felt alone. A lot of things happened in my childhood that probably contributed to this, but I can’t go back in time and change it. Being diagnosed with cancer brings you to review your life. You wonder what you did wrong, what you could have done better. It makes you… Read More

When you have kids, trying to achieve what you used to be able to do is nearly impossible. You have to change your mindset and let go of certain things and change your standard quite a bit.

Being bored with a kid is impossible. Every day is a new adventure. Yesterday he didn’t sleep through the night, last night he did. Go figure. Looks like it’s impossible to know when he will sleep. Maybe he’s just slowly transitioning. Today he’s been a bit grumpy. I think his teeth are bothering him. It looks like all the four top teeth are coming out at the same time. Poor baby. Tylenol… Read More

Originally posted on Simply Etta :
Photo Credit When we’re incomplete, we’re always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we’re still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on–series polygamy–until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are…

Sometimes, when you least expect it, things happen in your favour.

Today was quite challenging mentally for me. Of course, being tired doesn’t help. My son decided that he doesn’t want to sleep from 2 am to 4:15 am. And over that, he’s fighting his naps during the day. He has been doing this for the past week or so. Sometimes I wish he could tell me what’s going on. Perhaps it’s teething, maybe it’s a stomach ache, or possibly just because he… Read More