Walking is my time for reflection. Since I learned about my cancer, I think a lot. But ever since I finished my chemo treatments, it seems like I’ve been thinking a lot more.
I guess we can describe all my thoughts as soul-searching.
La marche est mon temps de réflexion. Quand j’ai appris pour mon cancer, je réfléchissais beaucoup. Mais depuis que j’ai terminé mes traitements de chimiothérapie, il me semble que je réfléchis beaucoup plus.
Je suppose que nous pouvons décrire toutes mes pensées comme une introspection.
I am sorry if I was M.I.A. for a while… as most of you know, I have been dealing with cancer since April 2021. My life hasn’t been the way I imagined especially with a young child and the pandemic. My hopes was very low up until June when I learned it shrank almost by 50%. Being diagnosed at a stage 4 and see this huge improvement and knowing that the treatments… Read More
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A big part of my life, I didn’t know my purpose in life. Now that I made peace with myself and decided to stop comparing myself to others and be happy with what I have, now that death is threatening me, I pray for my life. I ask myself so many questions and the main one is “why are you giving me something so beautiful and precious and you’re threatening of taking… Read More
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The past weekend was great! For us in Canada, it was a long weekend. Yes, I was still feeling the chemo effects, but I was feeling good enough to go on a small walks here and there. When you have a child, you can’t just stay at home all the time. Our son would just be a mess. So we went for short walks at places we never been or that me… Read More
When you have kids, trying to achieve what you used to be able to do is nearly impossible. You have to change your mindset and let go of certain things and change your standard quite a bit.
Being bored with a kid is impossible. Every day is a new adventure. Yesterday he didn’t sleep through the night, last night he did. Go figure. Looks like it’s impossible to know when he will sleep. Maybe he’s just slowly transitioning. Today he’s been a bit grumpy. I think his teeth are bothering him. It looks like all the four top teeth are coming out at the same time. Poor baby. Tylenol… Read More
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