Dear Me, Things have changed in the past couple of years. You became the mother of a beautiful boy whom you love unconditionally. You never thought you could love a human being this much. You raised this little being in the middle of a pandemic which made it very difficult for you and possibly created delays in your child’s development because you didn’t have the support and help that you could have… Read More
Monday I had my post-operative follow-up appointment. Everything looks good and they will follow me closely every 3 months. My prognosis looks very good so far, but what’s most shocking is that they are not sure if the cancer they orginally diagnosed me with is the correct one. They think it might be something else. The pathologist is doing more tests to figure out what it really is. If my cancer ends… Read More
Two weeks ago, I had my surgery. Things went well. They were able to remove the main tumour as well as 4 wedges of my right lung. Part of me is relieved, part of me is worried that they may have missed something. Many people are telling me to focus on the now and stop worrying on the things that hasn’t happened yet and that you can’t control. It is true, I… Read More
Walking is my time for reflection. Since I learned about my cancer, I think a lot. But ever since I finished my chemo treatments, it seems like I’ve been thinking a lot more.
I guess we can describe all my thoughts as soul-searching.
La marche est mon temps de réflexion. Quand j’ai appris pour mon cancer, je réfléchissais beaucoup. Mais depuis que j’ai terminé mes traitements de chimiothérapie, il me semble que je réfléchis beaucoup plus.
Je suppose que nous pouvons décrire toutes mes pensées comme une introspection.
It’s almost time again to undergo another chemotherapy treatment. I don’t know why, but this time I feel more anxious. I don’t want to go. I know how it will make me feel and I am tired of this. I want my life to go back to normal. I can’t complain too much because until now I have been able to recover quite quickly and have been able to enjoy some time… Read More
My positive CT Scan results gave me so much hope! Before I didn’t know if it was possible to survive this cancer. It is so rare and not knowing if the treatments are working was nerve-racking and to be honest, I didn’t know if I could do it. Yes, I am scared that it could start growing again or grow somewhere else in my body. Every little pains is a reminder. I… Read More
This Monday was my third chemo, which marked the half way point of my treatment. Three down, three to go! I find this week was a bit harsher on me than the last cycle of chemo. The nauseas were more intense. All week, I didn’t feel so well. One day, I actually slept 14 hours just to go pass the nausea stage. During the first week post chemo always makes me feel… Read More