Melanie Bisson

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Dear Me, Things have changed in the past couple of years. You became the mother of a beautiful boy whom you love unconditionally. You never thought you could love a human being this much. You raised this little being in the middle of a pandemic which made it very difficult for you and possibly created delays in your child’s development because you didn’t have the support and help that you could have… Read More

Monday I had my post-operative follow-up appointment. Everything looks good and they will follow me closely every 3 months. My prognosis looks very good so far, but what’s most shocking is that they are not sure if the cancer they orginally diagnosed me with is the correct one. They think it might be something else. The pathologist is doing more tests to figure out what it really is. If my cancer ends… Read More

Two weeks ago, I had my surgery. Things went well. They were able to remove the main tumour as well as 4 wedges of my right lung. Part of me is relieved, part of me is worried that they may have missed something. Many people are telling me to focus on the now and stop worrying on the things that hasn’t happened yet and that you can’t control. It is true, I… Read More

Walking is my time for reflection. Since I learned about my cancer, I think a lot. But ever since I finished my chemo treatments, it seems like I’ve been thinking a lot more.

I guess we can describe all my thoughts as soul-searching.

La marche est mon temps de réflexion. Quand j’ai appris pour mon cancer, je réfléchissais beaucoup. Mais depuis que j’ai terminé mes traitements de chimiothérapie, il me semble que je réfléchis beaucoup plus.

Je suppose que nous pouvons décrire toutes mes pensées comme une introspection.

It’s almost time again to undergo another chemotherapy treatment. I don’t know why, but this time I feel more anxious. I don’t want to go. I know how it will make me feel and I am tired of this. I want my life to go back to normal. I can’t complain too much because until now I have been able to recover quite quickly and have been able to enjoy some time… Read More

My positive CT Scan results gave me so much hope! Before I didn’t know if it was possible to survive this cancer. It is so rare and not knowing if the treatments are working was nerve-racking and to be honest, I didn’t know if I could do it. Yes, I am scared that it could start growing again or grow somewhere else in my body. Every little pains is a reminder. I… Read More

Last Thursday was my CT scan. Who knew it would be so stressful. On the way to my appointment, I felt emotional. I really want this test to bring some positive news in my life. I was listening to music and tears wanted to come out. The strangest thing was that I wasn’t thinking of anything specific. I was looking forward for this test, but I was also scared of it. This… Read More

This Monday was my third chemo, which marked the half way point of my treatment. Three down, three to go! I find this week was a bit harsher on me than the last cycle of chemo. The nauseas were more intense. All week, I didn’t feel so well. One day, I actually slept 14 hours just to go pass the nausea stage. During the first week post chemo always makes me feel… Read More

The past weekend was great! For us in Canada, it was a long weekend. Yes, I was still feeling the chemo effects, but I was feeling good enough to go on a small walks here and there. When you have a child, you can’t just stay at home all the time. Our son would just be a mess. So we went for short walks at places we never been or that me… Read More

With COVID, you try to limit your exposure as much as possible. Who would have thought a side rib pain would turn someone’s life upside down. Well…it did for me.

A Difficult Decision Sending my son to daycare was a hard decision. We didn’t have another alternative and it wasn’t by choice. I had already extended my maternity leave and it came the time that I needed to go back to work. It is harder for me than it is for my husband. If I was given the choice and that we could have afforded it, I would have stayed home with… Read More

So many things has happened and is happening this year and we have to enjoy it in confinement… Can I say enjoy… not really. This social distancing is taking a toll on us. It certainly not what I was expecting for my maternity and parental leave… Last month was my husband 40th birthday and we couldn’t do anything special… Today is my birthday… we won’t be able to do much as well…… Read More