Feeling Pushed to the Wall…

Well, it happened. The news I didn’t want to hear.
Two cases of covid-19 have been reported in my son’s daycare.

I’m going crazy over here. I wish I could stay home with my child until things settle down, but money doesn’t grow on trees and bills won’t pay themselves. I already extended my maternity leave to stay with him longer. I have no choice.

The anxious feeling was starting to go away and then I learned this and it came back. I listen to Christmas music in the car, I start crying. I hold my son and hug him, I start crying. Is it even normal?

In regular circumstances, I would look forward to going back to work. Even a few weeks ago, I was getting excited. I bought myself a desk and computer chair so I can be ready to start in January. This pandemic screwed us big time.

This year was already difficult enough, now this. I hope the cases will disappear by the time my son starts.

I feel like I’m doing everything I can to keep him safe from this virus, but still failing to do so no matter what. I don’t feel in control and it drives me insane!

Photo by Kristina Tripkovic on Unsplash

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