Today was quite challenging mentally for me. Of course, being tired doesn’t help. My son decided that he doesn’t want to sleep from 2 am to 4:15 am. And over that, he’s fighting his naps during the day. He has been doing this for the past week or so.
Sometimes I wish he could tell me what’s going on. Perhaps it’s teething, maybe it’s a stomach ache, or possibly just because he doesn’t want to be alone. I wish he could tell me.
When things like that happen to him, it makes me wonder if I am doing a good job as a mom. Am I doing enough, am I doing the right thing, am I spoiling him too much, should I go and rock him once more or just leave him cry a bit.
When he cries, it breaks my heart.
The funny part is that they say things will get easier, but it feels like it’s getting harder. I had fewer issues when he was two months old than now. Being a mom is the hardest job I have ever done, but when he reaches milestones, it’s so rewarding.
I’ve done some research today and maybe he’s been sleeping a bit too much during the day. I will try to cut his nap a little and maybe that will help him sleep at night.
If you have kids, have you ever gone through this at around 10 months old?
Wish me luck!